Obsession
"Ludwig Boltzmann, who spent much of his life studying Statistical Mechanics, died in 1906, by his own hand. Paul Ehrenfest, carrying on the work, died similarly in 1933. Now it is our turn to study Statistical Mechanics.”
This may seem like navel gazing. But I feel like writing something about it. A tribute to myself and an old hobby actually. A meditation on inspirations, all-consuming interests, obsessions.
For fifteen years, languages were my great passion. Not language in general then, but a particular angle on it. I worked towards it becoming a new kind of lexicon. A "sound dictionary" would probably be the easiest way to describe it. Still think I was something central, important on the tracks. It wasn't that crazy at all. But the work came to an abrupt end around the turn of the millennium, and I'll come back to why.
It had started in the spring of '89. (With a "discovery" so trivial that I'm not even going to tell you about it!) All my first attempts to get an education then started from this interest. Started studying Linguistics at the university -92. Eurythm teacher training with the anthroposophists in Järna 95-96. Went to Komvux to enter the Speech-Language Pathology course, where I then spent 03-04. I dropped out of all the courses early. (Which was very lucky because otherwise I wouldn't have had any study funds left.)
But then it stopped. Why?
Well, I found out about a kind of lexicon that was not only a "thesaurus", which is already a very special kind of dictionary, but another even more strange one. Which was even closer to my own vision of how language and the meaning of words could be categorized in a new, clarifying way.
Right now, I don't remember either the designer's name or the book's name. Not even what was so special about it? But the guy had sadly died at a young age, I was told. From a brain tumor. Now if this had anything to do with each other. But in any case made me lose the desire.
Will think about that when seeing this picture.
